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Originally Posted by zooropa
I have a lot of problems w/dissociating, especially when I have intense nightmares or flashbacks, the usual ptsd crap. I have been dissociating a lot in session lately as we get closer to talking about trauma from my past.
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This is exactly what has been happening to me. Ftt talks to me about PTSD in each session, but I seem to be blocking it out/not listening, but since posting and reading this, I am realizing that she is talking about that. I dont remember what I was doing that she called ptsd. Or what I have been saying these past few sessions that she referred to as "typical ptsd" reactions I am having. If I think enough I might remember. I just dont want to go there. I want to forget it all and go about my evening.
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That's actually been good because it's been an opportunity for T to help me learn how to stay present or bring myself back & ground myself. A lot of times I go numb or can't feel my body at all & that's when she'll hand me some putty or something to hold in my hands and manipulate, that helps a lot with bringing me back into my body.
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Yes- I sort of can go numb, too. This past session was the first one where I told her I couldnt listen to what she was saying because I felt far away and underwater. She had me move around and drink my decaf.
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Even typing that ^ has given me the feeling of numbness throughout my legs but I just keep breathing through it. The mindfulness skills I have learned in DBT are excellent for grounding, especially the things about following the breath, because no matter where I am or what I'm doing, I always have my breath & can focus on that without anyone knowing what I'm doing.
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You sound good at this. These are good ideas. I need ideas of things to do to ground myself when no one knows what I am doing.