This is exactly what has been happening to me. Ftt talks to me about PTSD in each session, but I seem to be blocking it out/not listening, but since posting and reading this, I am realizing that she is talking about that. I dont remember what I was doing that she called ptsd. Or what I have been saying these past few sessions that she referred to as "typical ptsd" reactions I am having. If I think enough I might remember. I just dont want to go there. I want to forget it all and go about my evening.

Yes- I sort of can go numb, too. This past session was the first one where I told her I couldnt listen to what she was saying because I felt far away and underwater. She had me move around and drink my decaf.

You sound good at this. These are good ideas. I need ideas of things to do to ground myself when no one knows what I am doing.