Thank you everyone for your support. I was able to get two tests out of the way so some of the stress surrounding school is done. I think I also found a topic for my paper. Now I just have to run it past my professor. I think she will like it. And it will challenge me so that will keep me interested. I think the test went really well so that helps. I am working with other people in my classes, and that and chior are my ownly social times. It is hard with school to get out much other. Especially when it takes so much energy. Often leaving me exhausted afterwords.

It is hard to believe that there will be someone who cares about me though, being as my parents never showed that they did. They were just abusive. I'm in graduate school and I've never even been on a date. The idea scares me. I feel like I should just give up hoping. I know its just the depression, but it is hard to believe it will be different. Who is going to want to take on all my **** as part of the deal.