My favorite stress toys are the stretchy balls. My favorite one is called a thredz- Flex Fettuccine. I play with that darn thing like it's a yo-yo most of the time. I tried a squishy ball, but it didn't help. Maybe if I was angry that would help relieve some aggression. To help with anxiety I needed something that I could fidget with a bit more. I also like the slinky. I like the sound it makes when I rock it back and forth. Kinda soothing.

I think I feel anxious before sessions because I am afraid of what we will talk about and what emotions will surface. I feel like when I actually say stuff out loud to someone else it makes it real. I have to deal with it right then. I don't get to push it aside. Sometimes it scares me and sometimes it just hurts like hell.