((((((Babysteps)))))
I was just thinking about you today, very glad to see you posting.
I dont think you are selfish at all, you are quite the opposite, you gave so much of yourself. It is time you take care of yourself, do what you have to do for yourself.
I used to spend a lot of time on here but having gone back to work I spend a lot less and I actually thought I would not come every day but I do, I got so much from people like you, I would love to give back.
Please do what is right for you, you are important, you are a very caring person who deserves to be happy