Thanks everyone. I re-read my post now, and I still feel like such a whiner. I think you're all right, though... I should try to not worry so much about the degree.

Sunrise - yes, I'm afraid that if I wanted to see someone else, the psychiatrist wouldn't like it... not necessarily because he referred me to this particular person so much as that he wants to see me committing to something and making progress. If I choose to try a couple other people, it will just delay things even more, and I don't see that going over too well with him. Even though I had his approval, I did just drop out of DBT after only four weeks, so I don't want to create a pattern or image of being noncommittal and flaky. But still, I will try to bring this issue up when I see him on Thursday.

Also, I have this complex - The CBT therapist didn't do anything to make me want to leave, and I know that she's putting in time to work out the insurance, talk to the psychiatrist, and get my discharge summary from the hospital, so I'd feel really guilty suddenly walking out for no good reason, thus making her time and efforts totally wasted. It seems rude to me... so I feel somewhat obligated to stay. For whatever reason, it's like I can't leave unless I'm sure she's okay with it and has no hard feelings.

I feel trapped. Part of me says to give her a solid chance, and part of me says to pull out and find a male therapist before I get in too deep. Whatever I do, I feel like I'm letting someone down.