I saw a therapist and had no idea what to say to her (I know it sounds silly) but I really didnt !

She said how you doing ? And as I was doing ok that's what I said to her. I told her things was great as that particular week I was flying high.

I felt very positive about things and really felt silly sitting there discussing my non problems.

I couldn't remember anything bad ! So as I am in the UK I was 'let go' so another more needy person can have my slot.

Now I find I need to talk to someone but have to wait 18 months to see her again by which time I will either be dead or flying high again who knows ?

So do I write things down just in case I am fine and talk about the bad times which I cant see when I am fine ? I feel so positive about things when I am well I really don't think I will become ill again, I even reduce meds (silly again I know) but at the time it seems like a good idea and nothing will convince me otherwise!

I am BPD just so you know.