i know it sounds awful to hear but honestly im kinda tired of living and just tired of life i dont want to do this anymore nor can i do this anymore i feel like everyday im closer to death as every day i slowly die more and more inside even though im still living i have a family i dont have hope i dont want to deal with life or anything anymore i tried to die twice and both times i went to the hospital and left a week or so later i recently slit my left arm bicept muscle in the shower after a sad and pointless arguement with a girl that i love yet i still think and am probably depressed over the last break up with a girl a year or two ago which ended for no reason but because she was over it so i dont know what im looking for or trying to get out of this i dont know maybe its a cry for help i dont know what to do