I can relate to what you are saying. I did NOT want to be in therapy. I was annoyed that my doctor almost forced me to go. And it took me a good month to schedule my first appointment. And the first appt. basically sucked. I wasn't open to it at all. And I told the T that I was humoring my doctor, and that I didn't think it was going to do me any good. But had to at least try so I can continue w/ my meds. He was like Okay, well we'll meet up a few times and take it from there. Whatever, but I don't plan on doing much more than that! Well, that was 5 months ago.

Turned out I needed to be in therapy. It took me awhile to feel somewhat comfortable with my T. And I have talked it out with others here. I am still struggling. (I still get anxious before each session). After a few sessions it made me feel good that I was honestly putting forth some effort to get better. I am taking care of ME for a change. And that in itself has helped me feel better about myself. I am working on being a better person. To actually feel good inside instead of pretending. That's my ultimate goal. To genuinely feel happy.

Make that appointment. You may even like your T right from the start! But then again, you may not. Who knows? But at least give it a shot.