It looks like we are in the boat and it is a very sad place to be. I journal a lot to help filter out my feelings and it lets me to see the picture more clearly and it will help you to make the decision that is best for you. Talk, talk, talk to your friends and family if they are safe ground to open up to. And dare to dream if you could have your life another way how would you choose it to be. I mean what are the things you wish in a man. At this point I would not emotionally invest yourself with your current man and no sex. Emotionally invest in yourself,tell yourself what you deserve, feel what you feel, get affirmation from others closest to you, make new friends, keep in touch we us on this forum,and tell yourself " He is he and I am me", and take this as an opportunity to remember who you are and who you are becoming. Unfortunately crying, depression, sadness, anger, and many other emotions are a part of the healing process of getting better. Change your focus and purpose to get a break from your "misery thinking." Nurture yourself and allow yourself a break from obsessing about where did it all go wrong and please don't take all the blame. And ask yourself if he is emotionally abusive or just emotionally unavailable? Rejection is a horrific experience and your entitled to feel devastated. Ask yourself what are the other reasons why you stay and you may just surprise yourself and that's okay too. Maybe instead of being self-less you should be a little more self-fish.This is my second time around for me and it doesn't mean it is not harder I'm just smarter is all. "I see your pain and you are not alone." Keep in touch. Smilie