I've been scribbling and journaling out the wazoo for the past few days, trying to see where it leads me, and at first it didn't help any--I just went in repetitive circles and I felt stuck,

but I think things are starting to make a little bit of sense, fall into place a bit...

Yah!!!!!!!!!!!

I think maybe the reason I felt that the first session didn't help so much was because I was passive about it. I figured I NEEDED to be there, but I didn't have any desire to get anything out of it--I didn't really WANT to be there. If I really want to get anything out of counseling, I'm going to have to make an effort at it, which won't happen if I don't know what it is I want and WHY. Now I think my main concern at the moment is trying to figure out what I want, if I really want to stop SI-ing or not, if my decisions are worth the consequences, and if I'm willing to face the consequences.

Wow!!!!! Good problem solving here!!!!!!

Tonight, I felt the urge, but I'm going to try going without it, see how long I can go without it and how it works out...It's now day 3 without SI-ing, and the countdown continues... wish me luck.

Yah!!!!!!!!! And I wish you luck on your continued SUCCESS!

what is government therapy? how does that work?