The very first time I went to see my T, I waited alone in his waiting room a long time. He had this stone on the table, inscribed with these words: "Be Yourself." That helped me. Trishgu, the T wants to see you, not the person you pretend to be. Seeing that rock in my T's office seemed to be an invitation to be honest. It sounds like you already have a lot of insight, Trishgu, and that helps tremendously in therapy. Good luck tomorrow!