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Nov 11, 2009, 03:30 PM
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Member Since: Nov 2009
Posts: 6
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Originally Posted by FeelingSad
Im so grateful for the help. We talk alot and he knows he can come to me for help. Sometimes when I worry , When i know hes having a good day , that makes me smile. He will say , i need you to be strong for you too. Does your friend say that too? Sending you a hug too I research alot so whenever he needs to talk im ready. Im so grateful to have him in my life , he means alot. I hope your doing better.
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I’m so glad your feeling better and I'm glad that u feel that way about him being in u'r life, I feel like that too but my situation is a little different at the moment the distance is starting to become an issue I love him a lot and I want to help him and I feel like the whole world is smiling when I know he's feeling alright but u know something I think I’m starting to realize that I’m the one who needs him maybe more than he needs me. it's been a week since I’ve talked to him and that’s normally fine btwn people who r so far away but it's hard for me I literally wait everyday for him. and the longer the wait the more I need to talk to him. I know this is so different than what my original post was but cuz we’re so far away I get so confused sometimes. sometimes I feel like I’m soo strong and that I’m going to help as much as I can but then other times I feel like I’m not even doing anything.. i know I told u don’t feel like u'r failing cuz u'r not and I know I’m not failing too I know what I’m doing I right cuz I really really want him to be happy. but when he's not here I feel like I need him to make me feel happy. it's like a weird addiction, it's nothing sexual or anything like that but I feel like I’ve gotten soo attached and sometimes it bugs me cuz I have to be honest I’m not a saint or anything my thoughts aren’t always positive I have my moments. I have times where I feel like he's not acting the way he is cuz he's depressed.. I know it's bad but I’m human and sometimes I’m the one hurting, like at times when he's not talking to me. I feel like he only talks to me when he has nothing else to do. that bothers me..I need to tell u that he's more than a friend we officially told each other how we feel 2 years ago..that’s y I guess I’m expecting more I guess but were still not offically together it's very confusing even to me. I know this is way off ..almost a totally different topic but I think just needed to vent
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