How incredibly painful that session must have been for you...It might be worthwhile to do some journaling based on that e-mail - to expand on each issue as you think of it and what feelings are generated for you...And then read this in your next session....so you can make this a productive experience. Just a thought....

It sounds like you've already made progress by expressing yourself, showing up to the session and being able to work through at least some of it during your session!

But OH so hard!!