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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
I'm so glad you brought yourself to call T and got a call back that turned into a productive conversation. I go through the same torture of trying to decide whether to "bother" my T outside of a scheduled session, being uncomfortable talking on the phone...and then leaving a message and waiting on pins and needles for a call back. I too wonder whether the torturous feelings are all worth it....I'm glad it worked out for you this time!
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thank you!
It somehow helps to know that I'm not the only one who can get so wrapped in how/when/why to call T, and I have many times described the whole thing as torturous, too. I was relieved that today I felt something of a connection with her over the phone, sometimes that's not at all the case.
And some things are easier for me to say on the phone, when she's not there *looking* at me, so I'm trying to slip those little things in when I get the chance, too.
but mostly the hardest part is just being willing to trust, again and again and again, when everything in me says TRUST NO ONE.