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Originally Posted by stupidsminkle
It definitely sounds to me like you're ready to move on from this  I can tell you're trying very hard and want to change. One thing that stood out to me while reading your post was that you said your therapist would be disappointed in you. I think Ts should always be supportive and never make you feel guilty if you slip up. I'm amazed that you had the strength to throw away your tools It really shows that you're ready to quit. |
thank you! Unfortunately, I have gotten rid of all my "tools" many times before, and there is always something else. The world is full of sharp objects. But throwing away this latest set of tools, it was a step in the right direction. One of these times I'll get it right & not start cutting again.
Also, my T is very careful to make sure that I'm not judging myself after an incident of SI, she will tell me that is just is what it is and not to be so hard on myself. So I don't think she is doing anything to communicate her disappointment, but I know it's got to be hard on her, to go over this with me over and over again. I know she has to be disappointed, either that or she just doesn't care, and I don't want to think that.