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Originally Posted by zooropa
 thank you! Unfortunately, I have gotten rid of all my "tools" many times before, and there is always something else. The world is full of sharp objects. But throwing away this latest set of tools, it was a step in the right direction. One of these times I'll get it right & not start cutting again.
Also, my T is very careful to make sure that I'm not judging myself after an incident of SI, she will tell me that is just is what it is and not to be so hard on myself. So I don't think she is doing anything to communicate her disappointment, but I know it's got to be hard on her, to go over this with me over and over again. I know she has to be disappointed, either that or she just doesn't care, and I don't want to think that. |
I know what you mean. When you are desperate enough, you find other ways to satisfy it. Although getting rid of tools does make it less easy for you to indulge in the urges, so that is a positive thing ^_^ And maybe you should express to her that you still have fears of disappointing her and of her not caring about you anymore. I say this because those are the types of thoughts that put me back into the negative state of mind and withdraw from people, and because my therapist reassured me that it's not how she feels or will ever feel.
