So appreciate you Sending me your story too, it helps to know someone else is going through something similiar. I'm not really doing so good, to be honest, But Im trying to, You sound just like me! Just like you ,My Friend and I also were sort of more than friends, we told each other also 2 yrs ago how we felt, and we got very close and looked to be headed towards officially being together, Things changed this yr , Not sure what happened and its been so hard for me, I cry alot. Its ok about venting, guess i need to also, So this is great to talk to you. I can understand that you may be unsure if he acts that way just in general and not because of the depression, Thats natural, so dont feel bad. With my friend, I know him so long so its not the same, but I def understand, dont be hard on yourself, its normal