sashasiegel,

I am so sorry you feel the way you do. I get to that point often and I just don't want to do it anymore. But then I remember that I love my family and I just would not like to do that to them. It's not a guilt thing. I really love them and they support me evn though at times I am unsupportable.

I don't get nasty or angry, I just get hopless and helpless. I just want to be left alone and because I feel like Im going to die I don't care if I do.

But then I think of what it would do to them, I love them so much and I really have no anger or problem with them so it wouldn't be fair.

Try to push through this and try to just hold on to the fact that it will pass and you will feel better.

Depression is cyclic and this is just another cycle. If you have meds & they're not working, then talk to your doc and change them...

Keep us posted on how you are...

((((hugs))))
Rhiannon