I was on my cancer forum tonight which is sacred to me . It a place where many suffering from the devastaing illness of cancer gather and help each other daily giving hope and crying with those who are losing the battle .
I have a very serious cancer that has a poor prognosis and no clear answeres one way or the other .

I happned to look over the new member area and saw a new joined member with the name .

PrincessDiana09

and suddenly I feared for my saftey .

I hate that i get trigered this way , and why does this have to be? someman somewhere needed to make fun of Princess Dianna. to bring her down. for being a strong beautiful caring compationate woman.

Princess dianna was treated poorly by the media
Her name has become a label for those who suffer from Bulimia. She was also labeled Borderline by those who needed her to be so.

severa; years ago I was on a forum where woemen were made fun of and given a coin name of Princess Di.

Everytime I see the name used I get scared because of the hatred some men use it . I guess it gives them some power they need because they lack it in thier lives.

.because I used to have Bulimia. even though it was 20 years ago it stil stays with me . People can stil hurt me with thier words and labels .

why is it that men hate women who have eating disorders ?

why hate people who suffer?

why hate people who are beautiful? both inside and out ?

I got so upset tonight thinking about this I almost hit a person who darted out on the street tonight in the rain
I thinK Ive hiT my bottom .
I keep saying this

I don't feel safe here I keep trying I don;t a person here hates me. Has for quite a while .

I can't be around angry frustrated men who debase women and think its okay

I feel scared .

I need to protect myself.
Patricia