We work for the same hospital, I will be seeing this doctor all the time whether I fire her or not. It is highly likely that she will be the OB at deliveries where I have to attend and provide care for the baby.

There are many other OB doctors I can choose from, my insurance covers any doc that delivers at my hospital. I won't even have to pay a copay for my prenatal care.

Three of my coworkers came up to me and told me that I need to fire my OB, even BEFORE I told them this story. They all told me that my OB panics and doesn't know what to do with mental health or pain issues. I told her I was depressed at 12 weeks pregnant, and she told me that she doesn't like to prescribe SSRI drugs to pregnant women so I should talk to someone. She gave me a referral. Then she never asked me about my depression again. Even at 21 weeks when I told her my only joy in life was my fetus and my patients. Even when I was angry and ranting all the time at appointments. Nobody asked me anything at my postpartum appointment....I eventually realized being suicidal couldn't possibly be normal...and called the psych NP that treats me now. Only then did the OB ask me any questions about postpartum depression....

I knew I couldn't tell her about my issues...she was running late in the office one day. She was all panicky looking and told me she was sorry...that she had a suicidal client in the office and was trying to figure out what to do. (Major privacy violation....what would she have done if I had told her I was suicidal too?) Bad OB!!!!

My NP came out and completely agreed with everything I said about my OB. Apparently my OB panics and calls my NP all the time asking her to see the patients with any sort of mental health issue.

I can only imagine what my OB now thinks of me. I almost want one last visit to ask her just that question. Can she respect that I will read the same articles and come to a different decision than she would? What does she think of bipolar clients? Why doesn't she improve the level of comfort she has with mental health issues?

Or I could just let her get away with treating me like this...and turn the rage inward, just like I always do.