is it really bad that ive been doingthis for 3 years? i . its hard for me to take this disorder serisouly when its been a part of my life for so long. my boyfreind wants me to see a doctor. i have such confilicting feelings on what to do. i feel so selfish for worrying about my wieght, almost concieted. when all this bad stuff is going on in the world and with all the starving people in the world that do not choose to live in that kind of lifestyle. so i have feelings of guilt. but i know that throwing up everyday is not good for me. i think that bulumia is a part of me now. its my freind that has helped me through tough times. im so confused still. theres no point to this post. =/