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Nov 12, 2009, 10:48 AM
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Member Since: Sep 2009
Location: UK
Posts: 721
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I just came home from having a smear test. It hurt. It never hurt before and because of where it is obviously I felt a bit triggered actually .... I lost a bit of concentration, things went a bit foggy and I was slow with my replies to the nurse .... but I coped. I have a hell of a headache now, abnormal cells when I was younger were going thruough my mind, and the reason as to why I had those abnormal cells at such a young age .... without spelling it out ..... hmmmm. I guess I'm ok now, just wanted to let other people know that at one time I would have gone to pieces but I managed my fears today, just a headache to show.  Couple of flashbacks but kept telling myself I am safe I am safe and I'm here in 2009 and I'm 45 years old .. (ooerrr now I am sad lol)  Ophelia x
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