Just like in other relationships, finding the right T or pdoc has to be the right match. We are friends or romantic partners with certain people and not with others. There are reasons why we choose certain people to be in our life and avoid others. Sounds like your current situation is an example of a relationship that is not a good match. The right T or pdoc is out there, it can just take time to find them. Good luck in your search and I will be thinking positive thoughts for you!