so as some of you may know. i have been kinda unofficially dating my room mate/ best friend since grade school for a short time now. im 19 and ive
been smoking since i was 14. she knew about it of course. we got done "doing it" this morning and i went out on the balcony for a cigarette
and she slides open the door and says "i wan't you to stop smoking" and i
look back at her and say "no." i didn't say it in a mean way. but i was pretty
upset because the way she addressed it sounded very judgmental and kinda
like she thought i was just going to stop because she wanted me to.

i picked her up from work and she leaned in to kiss me and i kinda dodged it
without thinking and said "careful i just had a cigarette." and the way i said
it was a little rude. as we were driving home she put her hand on my hand
when i went to shift gears and i pulled it away.

we're home now and she went to bed. her bed to be exact. every since
we've started having sex we've been sleeping in my bed. but not tonight
she came into my room and i was doing homework and she said "love you,
goodnight." and then turned around and went back to her room.

i hope this isn't as bad as im thinking it is.