(((((((((((((nightowl)))))))))))))))))))
i understand how you feel..it is very hard being alone...my husband has been out for 2 years ..we have tried to go back ..it doesnt seen to work..i am full of confusion myself...i know that when things get ruff ..from a distance everything looks may look good and seem like it could get better and maybe i should try one more time..but then when it is up close..it doesnt look the same...everytime i have tried to go back i have found myself worse off then i was when things were so ruff being alone..if that makes sense..tomrrrow he is due to have surgery..i have always taken care of him..i feel extreme guilt cuz im not...truth is ..i just cant...i have to keep reminding myself you cant go back for the wrong reason..may it be loneliness or guilt....and also why we are apart in the first place....i dont know if this has helped you at all but at least know your not alone and i know myself i understand how you feel......take care of you....sherry