wow, well it has been almost a year since I cut myself. I have been doing really well even though my life has felt like crap. Not today though. I was pushed to my last straw and I couldnt take it. I didnt have the support of my family, friends or coworkers and I turned to my comfort zone. No one knows about hurting myself, they have asked about the scars but I keep up with the lie I gave--they dont push any further than that. they dont really want to know.

All I know right now is I dont want to do this anymore. I cant keep pretending I am someone I'm not. I hate everything right now--especially myself. No one in my life understands me--so please, anyone....