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Originally Posted by angel730
wow, well it has been almost a year since I cut myself. I have been doing really well even though my life has felt like crap. Not today though. I was pushed to my last straw and I couldnt take it. I didnt have the support of my family, friends or coworkers and I turned to my comfort zone. No one knows about hurting myself, they have asked about the scars but I keep up with the lie I gave--they dont push any further than that. they dont really want to know.
All I know right now is I dont want to do this anymore. I cant keep pretending I am someone I'm not. I hate everything right now--especially myself. No one in my life understands me--so please, anyone....
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Safe hugs to you. No one can know the pain of your heart. All I can say is that I do understand what it is like to not feel that support. Oh sure, I have friends and people who "love" me - but I don't feel as though any of them really know me or get me or realize just how deep my wounds go.
SI does provide a small distraction to the internal anguish. But then we are left with even more damage and shame. That is a high price to pay.
More safe hugs.
