Every weekend it starts...I am feeling crappy .....tired of being stuck and alone.....but scared to live..........
I am stuck today ..... friggin aggravated...... trying to not let it in but I cant seem to move outta my own way .......i dont know why....

I have options .... 3 differnt options other than staying home...... but I am stuck ...inside my head I just want to curl up in my blanket and ignore them and sleep......bad habit ..... It is a fight it is a struggle .....

already emailed T cause I feel blagh! gotta go to work clear my head on the way there......mannnnnnnnn I wish I had a shut off switch