jai-jai I'm really sorry that you are having such a hard time. Sounds like you are in a depression. I know that I feel extremely uncomfortable and scared most anywhere besides at home. Its taken me about 14 years to get to where I even feel comfortable at home. When I still lived with my mom I was completely miserable and leaving there was one of the first steps towards me feeling better. Is it possible for you to move into the dorms at uni or something like that? Are you seeing a therapist?