That maybe I have upset people. I don't go out of my way to upset people. My opinions may be strong, but everyones opinions count right? Sometimes I'm afraid to say something, something that I believe to be wrong just because some people may hold it against me or not like me for it. It's confusing, is this my illness or is it the fear of not being liked? Or is THAT part of being borderline . I'm struggling a bit right now as I've had no therapy for two weeks, usually I ask my therapist these questions .... to keep me going .... I don't want to use my issues as a scapegoat, I just feel really confused. Sometimes people can seem so caring on the outside, say caring things but underneath there is an underlying hypocricy (sp) and that worries me too ... I suppose it comes down to trust? I feel if I don't say anything then my opinion doesn't count? sigh ... sorry to ramble .... one of those 'puzzling' days I think, Ophelia