I know how you feel. I feel like a slug all the time, just sitting there knowing there is so much I NEED to do and I just sit, sit, sit feeling like a failure. You are NOT a failure. Are you on meds for depression? Sometimes they can slow motivation too. As for your "list". Take one thing at a time. Sometimes just getting out of bed has to be enough. And Take a few breaths and try to only achieve the "little" things. And reward yourself for even the basics cause feeling the way you feel that is all you can achieve at this point. Give yourself a pat on the back for even that much. Tell yourself "I did it" for the little things.