nearing the end of the rope
the one with the frayed ends
no desire to tie the know
and hang on...

intense sounds from the training
going on for weeks
day and night
teaching how to kill
lessons on how to stay alive?
physically, probably
mentally...maybe
all the kings horses and all the kings men
lost in the tons of paperwork
putting who and what back together again
patch up job never as good as the original
one study claims to be the best
so does the second and third
and I can't count that high
how can any study be right
when it's a telephone interview with 812 Veterans??

small pockets of success
ruined under the microscope
of it works here lets improve on it
when ya tear it apart
continuity disappears

T thinks the nearly constant roars
from the training at the local installation
are dragging many of us back into high alert
increase/return of symptoms showing
little outside, big inside
move? not right now, monopoly money does not work

angry...sad
whimsy support
here, there, everywhere
refuse to call out
afraid of no response
cookie-cutter tsks! tsks!
better to be silent
it hurts less than pats on the head
on to the next one says the leaders of the calvary
numbers count, not the substance
Hi-Ho it's off we go...

spooky dreams
dreaded whispers of my name
being stage-whispered...
who goes there?! no answer
sweats, not-agains, weep in the darkness
weep in the darkness