Thanks a ton for your replies guys, it's getting "easier" to deal with as the days pass.

Lenny:

I've been thinking about doing something like this. Going to the gym has helped and its been a routine of mine for quite some time. I'm spending a lot more time at the punching bag these days though :P I actually found a very interesting astronomy group that's kinda close to me that I'm considering joining. I've always been awe-struck by the amazing wonders of the cosmos and I think it would be a good way to get my mind off things.

justfloating:

I suspect your first suggestion is what's going on here. That doesn't make it hurt any less, but it does somewhat make me feel a bit better about myself. I did everything I could to make this relationship flourish, and for a long time it did. She recently started going back to school, only one class, but I suspect that had something to do with it. Maybe she met someone at school, maybe some of her friends had an influence on it, I dunno. She was raised in a very traditional southern house. The man makes the money, the man takes care of pretty much everything. Perhaps that also had something to do with it, I don't know. I'm trying to give her the space she asked for, and doing a decent job at it.

And, as for your second analysis, if that truely is the case then I do agree with you. If I hadn't lost my job now, and things got to the point where I was considering marriage (which I was) and I lost my job somewhere down the line and this is how she reacted I would be broken beyond repair. I was raised in a broken house and saw what divorce did to my mother. I always said I would only get married once, and if god forbid I did get a divorce I would stay single for the remainder of my life. Perhaps it's a blessing in disguise I got to see her true colors now rather than after I said those powerful and binding words "I do".

I dunno, like I said as days pass it's getting a bit easier to handle. I still see things that remind me of her constantly, and it hurts. But what can I do, I just have to try to disassosciate her with those things in my mind I suppose.

Thanks for your replies