Vett,
It's a good step that you see that you need a break and that you see that your life will change one way or another. You hold the keys, just need to find the right door. I believe you will. Don't give up.

As for your girlfriend. I realize it is hard on you because you have lost your connection and right now it is causing you much guilt, sadness and stress. I noticed in your post you kept referencing how you feel and why would she want to hurt you more by ignoring you? Vett you gotta know that she is hurting too. Maybe she is afraid to respond to you because part of her is torn up too and she'll fall apart. She needs to be strong now. Maybe part of her cares very much for you and she can't have you, for her that wouldn't be good for her right now so she needs to remove herself from the situation. There could be alot of reasons but I just want to make the point that she may not be intentionally hurting you but she is hurting and dealing with all this the best she can. I have no doubt this is hard for her too.

The first emotional reaction is often times anger. When someone hurts you, you feel anger but under that lies, hurt, dissapointment, fear, etc. Sometimes it takes time to get thru the anger and deal with the real emotions and sometimes peopel never do. It's hard to say what she is like so I can't say give her a month or something. I just think she needs time because you aren't the only one who lost here and like you she has to deal with things her own way.

I know it hurt you not to get an acknowledgement for the flowers but I believe the best gift is given with no want of a return and like I believe Heather said, it may have made her feel ackward and she didn't know what to do maybe she felt you expected something in return that she couldn't give you right now.

I hope this doesn't sound like a lecture because that isn't my intent. I care about you and I know you are having such a hard time putting things in perspective and finding a new path for your life. You will Vett!!! Take it easy on yourself and hang in there.
Hugs,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell