Hi everybody,

Thanks for your comments & support. I am still feeling pretty ok. T-relationship is always so complicated. Sometimes I just can't BELIEVE the things I say especially when I put my brain on rewind and I think, "I said that?" OMG For example, I was explaining something to T the other day about behavior of others and I actually used the term "BLOWJOB!" And he used the word, "debauchery." WTF? I started laughing and said, who uses that word?

Chaotic--PERFECT description of the up and down paradox.
Kiya--yeah I am just now realizing that the disintegration and dissociation is a defense. I never believed that before. Ugh.

((googley,BlueMoon--THANKS!!))