Hello,
I need to look to the city for psych. help. The doctor in town is not accepting any more patients. To drive to the city is 20+ miles. I don't drive long distances very well with all my other health issues. We don't have a taxi or bus service here but we do have a van for seniors. I will contact them to see if I can get a ride and go from there.
Since I hit the bottom of the mountain-I don't have the energy to do anything. I feel exhausted but can't sleep very well. Three weeks ago I was put on a beta-blocker for my heart because the rate was fast. (Porphyria related) Walking would cause me to nearly pass out. I was breathless a lot. I thought I would have more energy after being put on the beta-blocker. I did feel better but I don't know how to tell if the medication made my depression worse or it is just me. It is strange how I have trouble with my heart and other medical problems-yet I wish I would go to sleep and never wake up. I am glad I can share things with others who also go through many of the same problems. I want to thank everyone for sharing their stories with me. Cathy