I am so glad that y'all read my post and get it. I am going on a week long trip by myself with 3 kids. I really don't want to go but, if I don't they will hold it against me. My husband gets it for about a second. Then it is back to my list of things I need to get done for him and the family. Nobody knows any of my issues except my husband. A few years ago I told a very close friend a few of the things that was going on and she thought I was acting like a spoiled brat. The way she seen it was I had the perfect life, great kids, husband that let me stay at home, husband that provided very well for our family, great friends, I got to travel, and everybody is healthy. Why on earth are you acting all depressed? I left her house vowing to take this issue to the grave with me I would never tell anyone ever again. I would expect this same reaction from my family and also from my husbands but, when I got it from a friend.....I was floored and just decided maybe she was right. So the act goes on. When I get really down like this I just keep to myself and pray it goes away. It is very hard and takes a physical toll on me.