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Originally Posted by MissCharlotte
Sometimes I just can't BELIEVE the things I say especially when I put my brain on rewind and I think, "I said that?" OMG For example, I was explaining something to T the other day about behavior of others and I actually used the term "BLOWJOB!" And he used the word, "debauchery." WTF? I started laughing and said, who uses that word?
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Bwahahahaha!!! OMG, that is too funny! I am not so comfortable talking to T about a-hem stuff like that...but one session, I told him that I had wanted to be intimate with my soon-to-be-ex-husband-at-the-time. I gave it some real thought to figure out why I wanted that and said that I knew it wasn't for sexual gratification because I don't need a man for that -
- OMG, I SAID that?
- then proceeded to say that what I really wanted was to give my husband oral sex. I explored that further, explaining that it was the sense of being in control, feeling wanted, having value, knowing that it was pleasurable for someone, not having to deal with the issues of not wanting to be touched, etc.
Good lord, how did I even do that? Yet, I struggle with the idea of dealing with certain sexual issues with T....like talking to T about me "not wanting to be touched" issues....the CSA....etc.