Hi, Grey,
One thing which got me out of a bad funk was becoming involved in a challenging and rewarding stint in summer school.
It was wonderful to have the demands of something outside my own oppressive thoughts.
A couple of things come to mind as I read your posts. Please don't take offense, as I am concerned for you, as are many others here as well....First, how do you spend your time? Do you have an occupation which diverts your attention and which you find rewarding? Second, have you researched the medications you are taking to see if there could be some adverse interactions?
Just some thoughts...Please don't take offense.
In my own recent experience, it was a Godsend to be in the company of other positive people with like interests. I think, if I had not experienced that, then a solution would have been for me to have found a volunteer situation where my presence and service were needed and appreciated, and where I could help others. Just some thoughts.
Seeker