   Sorry you're having a tough go of it (((((SUNNY))))). Speaking from my own personal experience, I realized that it was that emotional child within who was afraid and overwhelmed at having to deal with adult matters. Being a certain chronological age meant handling things as an emotional adult, but I wasn't in so many ways, and it was my emotional child who felt inadequate and unprepared for such things. It does take time, SUNNY, but with work and support from good people, that emotional child can mature and catch up to the chronologically adult you. The most important thing I had to learn was how to make the emotional child feel "safe" during the process - had to learn how to provide that child with the protection she never received from those who were supposed to protect her, but used their power to abuse her instead. You have to help that emotional child understand that she now has the power to protect herself and doesn't have to be afraid anymore - and we'll all be here to help support you and make you both feel safe in the process.
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure; she chattered all the way, But left me none the wiser for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow and ne'er a word said she; But oh, the things I learned from her when Sorrow walked with me!"
(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
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