Lara, I can so relate to what you are feeling as I have been that way for most of my life. I am finally with a good doctor and on a good cocktail and the symptoms are quite well maintained. Don't get me wrong, there are times of flare-ups, but every day is better than the one before. I spent 9 years battling the voices in my head and can relate to your anguish and your battle. If at any time you would like to chat or something, please let me know and I will be more than happy to listen and possibly offer some coping techniques I found helpful.
take care,
~ beautiful madness~