I regret ever starting this. All it took was one pin prick for me and I was hooked. It has gotten worse and worse and has destroyed many of my relationships. But I also do know how it feels to be frustrated because so few actually answer the question that was asked....I also wrote some poems... I also have more that I entered awhile back along with these.

I lay here licking
The blood from my cut
As it tries
To heal itself shut
I forgot how good
A fresh blade feels
And how it felt
As the skin seals
Leaving but
A thin red line
Not really one
Closer to nine
It still doesn’t
Bleed enough
My skin has gotten
Rather tough
Oh how I missed it
My sweet bliss
More than I longed
For a sweet kiss
The blood is all gone
I want more
I know I should
Let this heal before
I start to carve
Once again
Digging into
My smooth skin
Resuming the trend
I cannot leave
It makes me happy
Yet leaves me to grieve
I cannot wait
To leave the world behind
And escape to the blackness
Of my mind

Pain is all that I feel here
No happiness, little fear
Take a risk, just a slice
A little pain will feel nice
Watch the blood slowly drip
Touch the blood to my lip
Tastes so good
Like it should
Thick and pure
What a cure
For now, the pain I lack
But tomorrow it will be back
Again, the cycle will start
Hurting me and breaking my heart

My happiness so far away
No want to see another day
Yet here it comes once again
Another day to cut my skin
The scars become more and more
Cleaning them becomes a chore
The pain rarely does subside
Along with it goes my pride
All I can do is give in
Always knowing I can’t win

I count on no one
They all betray
So in my bed
Here I lay
Looking down
At the knife
For I know
It can ease my strife
So simple
Yet hard to do
For I know
It hurts you too
The cravings
They’re getting strong
I want to give in
But I know it’s wrong
I care for you
And don’t want to cause you pain
But how long
Will this feeling remain
My heart is beating
Faster and faster
The pain can subside
But only after
I finally give in
And damage done
To not only me
But to everyone
Your friendship
Is worth much more
Than anything
I’ve come across before
But how much
It’s hard to tell
Will this ruin our friendship
If so farewell