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<font color="green">Think I am finally starting to creep out of the current depression hole. I just feel less hmmm maybe more able to move. Less entangled less hmmm I don’t have any words for it
That feeling that you have become inert; that even raising a finger would be a colossal effort, as if my thoughts are sloughing through setting concrete.
Today I feel more alert and have noticed stuff that last week I didn’t see. It’s no wonder I can't keep up with the house.
I feel as if I climbed out of one pit only to find that the pit in a pit of its own
This pit is one of my more dangerous ones. Here is were I would have the energy to si and am still depressed enough to want to do it.
I am still stuck in the "I don’t want to do anything harmful but I don't know what to do with my hmmmm stress mode.” Fears? Anger? I don’t want to take up drugging or drinking. I never realized how many little ways I found to si through the years. Every one that I find I have to root out and find ways to make myself conscious of it and stop doing it.
I think the worst of it is there is so much crap in my brain I can't see clear to anything positive -- at least in this area. I really need to find an alternative habit, cos just resisting is not enough.
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dalila
Worry is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere.
-Erma Bombeck
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