Well, I didn't really talk to her but I gave her a letter. I explained that she is my best friend here and I need her as well as want her in my life and I feel that for some reason she is pulling away. I've hardly seen or talked to her these past 5 months. Twice it was social for her and I and the other times it was to babysit her kids or she just stopped by to take my dog for a walk with her. That kinda hurt a little.

So I did it. I opened up and told her how I really feel and now I wait to hear the reply. I feel pitiful, like I am begging for her to be my friend. She's just the best friend I have ever had in real life and she saved my life and hung with me when I was at my lowest.
She's the one that can make me laugh when all I feel like doing is crying and she is the one that made me feel cared about when no one else did.
I have tried to be a good friend to her too but I feel in some way I must've done something wrong. This is so "normal" for me to make a friend and then they "get busy" and I never see or hear from them again. Usually I just give up but this time I can't. She is too good a person and too important to me. I am trying to have good days and do good things and I want a friend to share those good days with. What's the point of keeping up a good mood and trying so hard when I sit with myself all day?
So I did it. She's probably read it by now....I don't feel good.
Just needed to vent.
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell