The frst thing I do is write a few paragraphs. (which is hard enough) and lost them somehow... OMG...
I am very unhappy.. and so tired of feeling like Im on the outside looking in. I know I have ADHD.. people have told me.. No Doctor.. just people I know and work with. Ive always known I have problems with concentrating... school was a nightmare and I opted out to smoke pot because, well I had to fit in somewhere..
I took the ADHD test.. affirming what I know... but what do I do now?
I can barely funtion.
I look back and remember having some self disipline when I was young..
but this is getting worse with age. I am 49.
Work is a nightmare when I have to do paperwork... sometimes I get into a rythem and until the phone rings or womeone interupts me it is good.
Sooooo... yes, I have all the problems that go along with this and am so very unhappy...

I want ot read and learn and grow.. etc.. etc.. but reading is so difficult right now.. I have stacks of books to read. I used to be able to do it where do I start? what do I do??

Most times I can laugh about all this confusion.. but I am tired of making myself the brunt of jokes at work. Right now I cant seem to locate spell check and am certain it's probably right there.

Could someone take a moment to maybe tell me something I need to hear?
I wold appreciate it soooo much... I am at the end of my rope... but know there is HOPE... there has to be!!!
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