I wouldn't say Huh? I would say "bravo!" I guess you need to hang around more artistic types. They would add to it! I would love to read some of your poetry. There is nothing wrong with the way you express yourself, some of us understand very well.

It sounds like we grew up with a very similar mother though I think my mom was antisocial disorder . But yeah, I get it, I get a lot of what you write. (whether poetic or not)
I am not sure if I asked you this or not, but have you found after EMDR, maybe days later, that you get this creative urge? My T says trauma is held mostly in the right brain, and that is where creativity is held. Some of the best stuff I have written was after EMDR.