stumpy, how wonderful that your T has bent her rules to help you and your peeps, that's terrific! She sounds like a great T.
I think that right now, having just realized what it feels like to feel safe with T, that my little ones are really drawn to that feeling. So feeling safe in that room with T may lead to some interesting things coming out that wouldn't have come out of adult me, probably.
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One big thing I have learned from my T is that it is okay to have mixed feelings about stuff. It feels uncomfortable, but it is actually progress from black and white thinking (don't know if you do that, but I do)
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Exotic, that's a great point. I'm definitely all jumbled up right now, lots of mixed feelings going on - maybe I'll talk to T about that on Monday!
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this time around, I am allowing myself to feel sad for the little girl that had these other thoughts get in the way of normal playing.
I feel a little like exotic, it might be too painful to let myself go there and play like a child. I would be afraid sad things would come up during play and Id cry and cry and cry....
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I'm glad that you're allowing yourself to feel sad for that little girl. I had a similar reaction after my EMDR, feeling sad for the younger me who went through something traumatic - the feeling really overwhelmed me, I did cry and cry for that younger me. But I think it was also healing.
ETA: I want to look more at my collage with T on Monday, and I think I'm going to ask T to sit next to me on the couch when we look at it together!
