Sorry I've been MiA. I've had a lot going on this past week.
Anyway, t and i did discuss what happened at our session last Tuesday. I apologized once again and T added that there was no need to apologize and that she has accepted my apology. I did make a point to tell her that I didn't apologize for the content of the letter and that those were indeed issues that we need to talk about. She was OK with that.

T also something about being too open with boundaries b/c she cares about me so much.( like email and phone). She does allow me to email her and we talk each thursday night as that helps me to connect with her as well. Because of the incident she has asked me to not email her anymore and will soon be taking away our mini phone session on Thursdays. All in an effort to help me talk directly to her about my issues/feelings in session. This is fine, however I feel as if she is putting me under some sort of punishment. I've acted out, so she is taking away my privileges. It's an odd and peculiar feeling for me. I don't have the means of seeing to more than once a week due to financial issues, so our Thursday talks help me to connect with T throughout the week. They are very important to me and she wants to take that away as well. This makes me very upset.

I also told T how scared I was to tell her about the email in session because of the look on her face. ( stern, cold, and teary eyed). She said that she was unaware of this. T knows that I am a very hypersensitive person and I pick up on feelings and emotions very easily.. even if a person says nothing... I told T that I could feel that she was angry and hurt,,, she agreed with me.
My question is if I have to worry about hurting T's feelings, how will I ever be able to get this anger out of me? if i can't do this, than therapy just won't work.

So t and i did make amends, but it's going to take a while for this bit to pass.

I wonder if T will greet me at the door or say hello when I come in next Tuesday? it's a shame that i have to wonder about this.