(((ThePainNeverDies)))

Oh boy ~ I can definitely relate. I, too, blame myself for many painful experiences that began in my early childhood.

I've been struggling hard to keep living my life. It is h-a-r-d . Keep on pushing though. People DO care about you. People WOULD miss you a lot. You don't deserve to live ongoing misery. If you are seeing a T, give him/her a call now and let them know. You need help getting through these very dark times. You are aren't alone. Say it over and over and over again if you have to.

Shez